I’m filled with an energy of manifestation that I need to become more responsible for.
This involves mindfulness; but it seems to demand a mindfulness of others more than mindfulness of myself. After all, I'm already generally mindful of myself — only in a very selfish way. And this myopia is my essential problem most of the time.
Strictly speaking, of course, if I’m not mindful of myself, I won't be mindful of others. Yet this mindfulness of myself can’t be located in my thinking. That kind of mindfulness of myself is the exact problem to begin with, because it isn't well balanced.
In order to see that more clearly I need to have a very good connection with the body, a permanent connection with the body that arises from a new and different kind of sensation.
Unfortunately, I can't force that sensation to appear; so I need to woo it with a gentle and persistent attention that invites it to be here with me.
If it’s here with me, I’ll begin to see more exactly what goes on in my thinking and manifestation from moment to moment. This is the point at which a new form of unity appears, and there’s only one of me.
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