House of Cards

The search for a path through life

I was speaking this morning in The Morning Five about the fact (it is fact) that I have a substrate of negativity that lurks immediately below my awareness – all three of my parts, my intellect, my body, and my emotions — which is a highly reactive substance that has positioned itself between my being and the world with the inclination to react automatically to what takes place outside me with some kind of negative attitude.

It is hardly too bold to think and speak of this in terms of chemistry because it is, indeed, the alignment of the molecules in me and the way they are poised in relationship to the incoming impressions of the outside world — the direction they point in – that causes this. We could think of them as a house of cards that has set itself up almost in order to fall over when things touch it.

Just imagine that. A bunch of molecules that set themselves up like a house of cards with the intention of falling over when things touch them. It's almost as though they think their purpose is to fall over, as though the instability of their structure was a merit. And indeed, if I examine my negativity at any length, and in any detail, I do see that it believes itself to be meritorious.