September Soliloquies/An original question

September Soliloquies

Photo: a bee-mimic fly. This one actually looks more like a wasp than a bee. It resembles a yellow jacket, a small, aggressive form of wasp. Potential predators are likely to see that and avoid it.

Can I have a question that comes from inside me, from my own life itself and not what is put into me from outside?

I don't want to begin my question from reading something. I rely too much on reading to provide me with questions. Somehow I need to discard all of the crutches that I create within myself by propping my interests and my inquiries up with other peoples ideas, and I need to become an independent. Someone whose ideas come from themself. Someone whose ideas arise from within the organic being— the direct experience of it, the mystery of it.

I’d like to find my own question from deep inside me. Not the questions other people raise.

An organic question.